“Brother”
My Family, Part 3 | Roman Jones
His Story:
I mean, these are definitely scary times, but I have been the last person to find out about everything because I don't watch the news and stuff anymore. I just don't like to buy into hype on things, you know what I mean? So I tend to try to stay away from it as much as possible, and then I will do my own research after people end up letting me know what's going on, which isn't maybe the best way to go about things. I try not to think about it, in the sense of buying into all the hype. When it goes to TV and media, I try to stay away because it's a viewpoint that's being spread for everyone to take what they will from it. And I feel like people, a lot of times, take things the wrong way, or they'll take things in extreme ways, and I just try to focus my own energies on self love and taking care of myself.
I don’t feel afraid because I came to the realization that tomorrow's not guaranteed, this might be my last day, and if I live my life in fear, then am I really living? So I don't fear things anymore. I spent my whole life being afraid of who I was, so the last thing that I focus my energy on anymore is fear. The only thing I fear is fear itself.
Growing up religious, I was in fear of a God; I was in fear of going to hell; I was in fear of all kinds of things that related to my identity. And I had to come to terms with the fact that I am what I am, and you know what, I'm not going to let a label be a prison or a sentence to me. So therefore, I don't wear them.
I had to learn how to love myself. Once I found that, nothing else really mattered. I love every person and every thing and being on this earth. I just don't like actions. If I hate something, it's going to be the person's actions, not the person. And I think that's what's missing: a lot of self love.